Background: Self-injurious behavior is an increasing problem among adolescents and young adults.

The aim of this study was to explore the experiences of adolescents and young adults' living with self-injurious behavior.

Method: The material consists of 15 blogs on the internet. These blogs have been analyzed using qualitative content analysis.

The result emerged in one theme: An inner struggle, with the following four categories: Difficulties in everyday life, Concealment, The behavior gets ascendancy, Relationships and limitations, Treatment. The result shows a lack of understanding about self-injurious behavior in health care and in society. The treatment they face in health care, in relationships and in the society show a lack of understanding and of acceptance, which means they hide their mood and their self-injurious behavior. The people suffer an endless struggle with feelings they do not understand or can express, and with a vapor, which they can handle only by, for example cutting themselves, due to lack of other coping strategies.

Conclusion: Adolescents and young adults with self-injurious behavior are living with an inner struggle. They are struggling with anxiety without relevant tools to handle the situation. Unworthy treatment and lack of understanding fill their everyday life. Therefore, they keep their problems as a secret, which limit their lives and causes them a lot of suffering.